Christian Community. Is that an oxymoron now? It is SO incredibly hard to want to be a part of the wreckage of whatever this is that is happening right now… Spiritual unrest? change? implosion? Because it sure as hell isn’t community.
My gut turns when it sees the battle starting (yet again) – battles against culture and with guns blazing into our own little Christian Civil War. Why would I want to be part of this?
My beliefs are happily different from probably most Christians today and you know what? I don’t need to fight for that. I just need to live it.
I used to have a lot of answers, a lot of stances and thought-out retorts but at this point all I have is knowing God is a God who has never left me. For some strange reason, this is enough for me.
He hasn’t left me.
And so I don’t want to leave him. Not because he needs me, but because I’ve seen how deeply I need him. So I am committed to this little faith of mine and this God of infinite love.
I suppose I could go it alone, if I wanted, but I have been moving toward trusting, letting go and attempting to find community. It is the spiritual path I am on right now and I don’t want religious boobs out there that just want to rant and rave about being repressed in the land of the free to scare me into fight or flight.
My initial response to the typical “Christian Response” is always major flight mode. Get me away from these fuckers. Shut all systems down. If you are Christian, you are expected to be like this? Buh-Bye then!
But then I remember my faith isn’t about them. It’s about following a God who has never left me.
That slows me down from running enough to remember that yes, there are the bully Christians, but there are also the Christians who speak common sense and uncommon love. I don’t believe in the black and white world that the zealots tout, so I don’t need a black and white response. I don’t need to fight back. I don’t need to flee from their takeover. I just need to continue to stay on my path with the God who never left me.
Here is a list of people that keep me sane in my Christian faith. I might not read everything they write, but when I do I tend to be hit with the knowledge that I really am not alone here in my own little world. I love what they bring to the world and the fact that they don’t make me want to bang my head against a wall. They make Christian Community much more bearable. 😉
I think they all have twitter & FB pages too.
Am I missing someone that you really connect with? Let me know!